First time ever on Vlog

Vlogging seems to be so fun. I've always wanted to have a try. From taking the video to editing and choosing background music, all done by myself. This is the best experience that I ever had. But still, I'm lack of confident to face the camera and talk. So my face is not exist on this video. 

I must say, people who can do well on vlog should earn the respect. Holding the camera and talk while walking in the public are are giving people a feeling of you are crazy or nuts. Well, as a Vlogger, you shouldn't been concern too much about this. I'm still in the process of learning to the idea on how to make a perfect cut for my video. My resources are limited. The only video cutting software I had was the iMovie which also an older version. Why? I don't want update my OS on my Mac. Why? I still miss Steve Job "handcraft" product.

This is the first try complete video that posted on YouTube. Please support. Thank You.

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Type of Interview You Might Encounter

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So how many of you actually encounter with the shitty interviewer that makes you almost flip the table and walk out of the room? Well, this is a few scenario that happen to me not long ago. Lets not disclose the company name but sharing the funny conversation we had.

The Tell Me About Yourself Question
Interviewer: So tell me about yourself?
Me: So hi, my name is Stephen. Currently work as a part-timer at one of the company. The reason I'm applying for this position is because I want to take up the challenge and do hope I can serve the company well. The reason I'm interested on this position is due to my studies and knowledge that can help to handle this position well.
Interviewer: Why you are not interested with the job that related with your major?
Kanneh CB. See what happen next? What answer you expecting? I always feel that the Tell Me About Yourself Question is the time for them to let you talk cock and they have time to view your resume. Most importantly, your expected Salary! Fuck!

Why not proceed with the Job that related with your major?
Interviewer: Why you are not interested with the job that related with your major?
(This happen when I ask for apple, there is only orange, when I look for orange, there is apple left.)
Me: (Fuck You Deep Deep) Oh well, I have high interest to work for this position which is on my co-major. I believe with the major I had, I able to handle the responsibility well and effectively. (Middle Finger showing from my eye straight to the interviewer)
Not sure is because I "Soi" (Unlucky), or they purposely do this to make my life misery. It's always happen that I apply for A Post, only B Post available, I apply B Post, A Post is what they offer.
Leave me no choice but choose to tell them that I actually interested for both position that I applied and available at the company. This make me look like a cheap hungry labor that hunger with work, which is true. :D

Salary..... Too high Lah!
Expected Salary: RM 2***
Interviewer: Let's see the expected salary. Erm..... You asking for RM 2K huh?
Me: Yeap.
Interviewer: To be honest, the salary you asking is too high. Even a person with 300 years experience may not come to this salary per month.
Me: Really? (Kanneh CB, Lu Amah Eh Tehkoh. Thought I'm stupid ah?)
Not forget to mention the working hour, 12 hours a day, 6 working day per week, and you say is too much to ask for RM 2K? Imagine your working location located at somewhere far far away from the kingdom.
Some even will bring up that you got no working experience which lead to them unable give you what your expect.

Working Experience
Interviewer: So Mr. Stephen, you have no full time working experience.
Me: Yea. (So?)
Interviewer: So there is a lot to catch up.
Tell me with your kind heart, where should I enroll to get a cert for Experience? You want me have 3000 years experience with high education level? Sorry, genius are not going to work the company like this.
Sometime chances are given to people who willing to learn and ready to serve you. People with experience are good, but how many of them are willing to accept the low pay when they actually have many years experience in this field? Think about this, nice quality is always have a standard price tag. You can't pay 10 cent to get an new iPhone. Even you can, you might get con! Hahaha.

Interviewer Behavior
If the interviewer is a person who work from basic post to high post, they probably will have a nice attitude while interview you. But but but, if the interviewer is a son or daughter of the business, sorry, the attitude totally can't accept. They behave as they are the king/queen that don't give a fuck to you.
Real incident: Prince or Princess of the company.
I enter the room. Due to the there is one person is going to go out from the room so I expect the person who going to close the door which he/she do. But......
Interviewer: Close the door. (Voice like ordering you work as you are already become their slave.)
Me: Ok. (Kanneh, door close liao leh, do you mean close your pussy door?)
Please, if you are the person who often did that, consider people like me who new to apply work. Just because you rich and lucky doesn't mean we all are your slave ok? We deserve a respect as well. What if one day some one did the same to you? Can you accept it and say never mind? Please put yourself under the others shoe, you may see thing different.

After all this incident, I still unemployed. Bad luck is all I can say. Or maybe I do make mistake during the interview. I'm not alone. Jack Ma also face so many rejection that make him what he is today. I believe I will find my way out from this dark room. Just the matter of time and patient I have. Never give up and you will see the light guiding you our from this shitty moment.

Hope you enjoy reading my story. Due to unemployed, I have time to think of what content to keep this blog alive. If you are the interviewer who read this, you are lucky not hire me. Because you giving me opportunity to keep hunting job and chasing my dream at the same time. I hope you don't feel offended or/and butt hurt.

xThat's all for now, signing off.x

Peace!

Start Clearing My Room and Life

Busy the whole morning to clear up my untidy, dirty, and more like a rubbish dump instead of bedroom. Ever since I start my studies at Swinburne, I never throw away a single piece of notes or printed slides. It's not that I'm lazy but always I thought it may useful for the following semester. So I keep it till today. Before this I still not even willing to throw away, the reason is simple, I treasure the thing belong to me. Today, I have no choice but decided to send them to recycle centre. The more I kept, the messy my room look like. Even myself can't stand with the dust that sticking and hugging with the paper. How loving they are. Sorry, Paper and Dust, You guys need to breakup. *Evil Smile*

Saving thing is easy, clearing thing is challenging. I have to view through every single part to ensure non of important document is together with the notes that I'm gonna send to recycle. It took more than 6 hours to complete the clear up session. Well, satisfies is the only words that I can describe for this task.

Beside clearing my room, it also clear up my life to bring myself to the next level. Lazy should no longer be an excuse for me to keep moving forward. No matter what, I need to do a huge adjustment on myself to ensure I'm ready for the real world.

I should going out more often to keep looking for ideas on what should I proceed for the next step. There is numbers of ideas floating on my mind but not sure where to start with. I will keep looking till I find it.

xThat's all for now, signing off.x

Peace!

2016, I'm back again and will be here!

Finally back here again. It's been so long since my last blog. Was wondering what to do for my free time. This probably is the best place to kill my time. Probably should should make it a routine to keep this blog up to date.

Good thing in my life is finally got my degree. Bad thing, still unemployed and keep hunting for job. Thats the most terrible moment in life. When life give me lemon, I cant turn it into a lemonade but turn it into rotten lemon. Shit things happen everyday. Nothing is following whats on your plan. Well, I never give up on this. While hunting for job, I guess blogging help me to keep track with my life progress. 

There is something stick in my mind most of the time. I always remember the time when people talk shit about me and critic that I still study while my age is getting close to old. Well, fuck it. I know I'm getting old. Who ever come across on my path and understand what happen to my past? No one want to be in this shitty situation. Who want to be born stupid? Who want to be born unlucky? Who want to be born with decease?  No one want to. So why should you judge me without understand me or put yourself into my shoe? I know there is some one who always talk shit behind me. I cant please the whole world. Hate me or Love me, that's not under my control. As long I don't do shit, I feel happy with it.

Turning to 30 is not a joke. Attitude is the major change. Be humble and always stay humble. Looking for job is super du......per challenge as you talk too much, interviewer worried you just know how to talk and cant do work. If you talk less, they may think you stupid. Damn man, what do you want from me? FML (Probably I'm too old for their company :D)

Will think of more content to add on this blog. If you come across reading my blog, please leave a comment. Good or bad, go ahead. I probably will take some photo about my beloved hometown and post here. Please don't put too high hope on the highly pro skill on photography. I have DSLR, but skill sucks to the max. 

xThat's all for now, signing off.x

Peace!

Something Missing In Life…...

It's been awhile since the last post. After the last post, I had been lost the interest on blogging. I clearly know that during that time, I'm concern about other things rather than what I concern right now. So here what I'm gonna share for this post.

Recently I find that I've change a lot. It's so obvious that the way I think and the way I feel is no longer the same as before. I used to be a person who like to complain a lot about life. Mostly will complain like why I don't get this, why i don't get that, why I'm so unlucky, why am i not that person with that life. Thousands of complains comes from me everyday. One day when I was in the class, one sentence from the lecturer actually change my thoughts. It's like a key which been lost for so long, suddenly unlock my locked secret compartment in my brain. That feeling is so amazing and I really hardly to describe by using words. You just feel so happy, imagine when you're still a kids, you been so eager want to have the lollipop and your parents actually surprise you right after you back from school. 

It's good to have a improvement on my brain. It allows you to generate more idea and think wisely. Bad thing is I suddenly feel something so empty on  myself. It definitely not the right time having such feeling. How am I gonna describe this feeling? It's feel like you want something and not that you really want that thing? Argh….. I just not only that but really something empty. I don't know how many people in this world do actually have this feeling. I hope that I'm not the only one. Or else really no medicine or treatment to cure. 

I love to speak with someone from other country. I just feel that from the conversation, you actually learn from them. Words won't change the meaning, but the way you present definitely going to bring the words be more meaningful. Simple word such as "Hi". A person who happy of the day may greet you with a happy "Hi", while the person who had a bad day, the "Hi" from that person really not what you expecting for. Still remember many years ago, when I was staying alone at other state, I enjoyed the moment meeting different people around me. It's like a gift from god to you. Each time you unwrap the gift, you get a new friend. To be honest, I don't appreciate a friend like I do now. I used to be think like people come and go, why should I be concern about their existent. It's true, but that doesn't applicable for a friend to treat you with their truly sincere heart. 

Few days ago, I visited this floating bookstore called Logos Hope. They visited my state for a few time from the pass few years, but I never had the chance to visit them. Reason is because previously I don't appreciate books. Books for me is like a material to be read for my exam or test. Well, it change my mind. Today, books is a material that passing a secret message to you. You gain knowledge from each and every words from the books. So I never know what is Logos Hope all about. What in my mind is just a s huge ship that carry tons of books and visit different port around the world. After visited, I had the interest to know more about the ship. I actually search for the information from the internet. They really catch my attention. Each one of them came from different country around the world. That is really amazing. How I wish I can be part of them. Working with people from different culture or country really improve yourself. It's really fun to work with people from other country.

I have a dream, and I know this is not going to be easy to achieve. All I need is patient. God know what's best for me. 

Turning to 26 years old.

In few minutes and I'm turning to 26 years old. Wow, I have stay in this world for 26 years old. 26 years ago, I'm just a small baby and know how to cry. After 26 years, can I still do that? What have I achieve for the past 26 years?

1. I finally know how to take care of others feeling.
At least now I know what is feeling all about. I never use a single second to consider other except myself. Now I know. Hope it is not too late for me to realize my mistake.

2. I learn how to be independent as in managing my life.
Yes, I lost alot of things in life. Including the one I love. But I tell myself nothing can stop myself for moving forward. I'm happy than before.

3. I finally know how to appreciate my life.
I know what is important for me. Instead of keep dreaming, I decide to wake up and make my dream come true.

Every year I will dedicate one song for myself. It never change for past few years, even for this year.
温岚-祝我生日快乐

Happy Birthday for myself. 26 years old is not old enough but no longer consider young. Should love myself more. My birthday wish is everyone in this world stay healthy and happy. I wish I able to meet the one who love me and the one I love too. Peace~~~~~~~~

As I thought I can.....

As always this problem happen to me. I thought I can. When you thought, it is a different thing as you do or as it real. You might not be able to get the right idea if you just thought.

From so many years, I can easily tell everyone that I can accept what ever the outcome is. Yeah, another as I thought. But when the things do happen, I really have no idea to handle it. I'm kinda weak on dealing this matter.

My life upside down since last year. I keep forcing myself to move on and not fall back again. As times goes by, I fall into the same mistake again. I can't handle the problem well. I not even able to convince myself to accept it.

Why my life have be so down? I keep looking the answer. No one able answer me neither myself.

It's really tired to think of all this problem. The more I think, the more I suffer. Should I go for it or just give up this opportunity?

God, if you do really exist, please lead me and show me the right way. Just show me and the rest I'll do it myself. I need a guideline. I had enough with all this. Really enough. I can't take it anymore. I need a break.