It's been awhile since the last post. After the last post, I had been lost the interest on blogging. I clearly know that during that time, I'm concern about other things rather than what I concern right now. So here what I'm gonna share for this post.
Recently I find that I've change a lot. It's so obvious that the way I think and the way I feel is no longer the same as before. I used to be a person who like to complain a lot about life. Mostly will complain like why I don't get this, why i don't get that, why I'm so unlucky, why am i not that person with that life. Thousands of complains comes from me everyday. One day when I was in the class, one sentence from the lecturer actually change my thoughts. It's like a key which been lost for so long, suddenly unlock my locked secret compartment in my brain. That feeling is so amazing and I really hardly to describe by using words. You just feel so happy, imagine when you're still a kids, you been so eager want to have the lollipop and your parents actually surprise you right after you back from school.
It's good to have a improvement on my brain. It allows you to generate more idea and think wisely. Bad thing is I suddenly feel something so empty on myself. It definitely not the right time having such feeling. How am I gonna describe this feeling? It's feel like you want something and not that you really want that thing? Argh….. I just not only that but really something empty. I don't know how many people in this world do actually have this feeling. I hope that I'm not the only one. Or else really no medicine or treatment to cure.
I love to speak with someone from other country. I just feel that from the conversation, you actually learn from them. Words won't change the meaning, but the way you present definitely going to bring the words be more meaningful. Simple word such as "Hi". A person who happy of the day may greet you with a happy "Hi", while the person who had a bad day, the "Hi" from that person really not what you expecting for. Still remember many years ago, when I was staying alone at other state, I enjoyed the moment meeting different people around me. It's like a gift from god to you. Each time you unwrap the gift, you get a new friend. To be honest, I don't appreciate a friend like I do now. I used to be think like people come and go, why should I be concern about their existent. It's true, but that doesn't applicable for a friend to treat you with their truly sincere heart.
Few days ago, I visited this floating bookstore called Logos Hope. They visited my state for a few time from the pass few years, but I never had the chance to visit them. Reason is because previously I don't appreciate books. Books for me is like a material to be read for my exam or test. Well, it change my mind. Today, books is a material that passing a secret message to you. You gain knowledge from each and every words from the books. So I never know what is Logos Hope all about. What in my mind is just a s huge ship that carry tons of books and visit different port around the world. After visited, I had the interest to know more about the ship. I actually search for the information from the internet. They really catch my attention. Each one of them came from different country around the world. That is really amazing. How I wish I can be part of them. Working with people from different culture or country really improve yourself. It's really fun to work with people from other country.
I have a dream, and I know this is not going to be easy to achieve. All I need is patient. God know what's best for me.
