As I thought I can.....

As always this problem happen to me. I thought I can. When you thought, it is a different thing as you do or as it real. You might not be able to get the right idea if you just thought.

From so many years, I can easily tell everyone that I can accept what ever the outcome is. Yeah, another as I thought. But when the things do happen, I really have no idea to handle it. I'm kinda weak on dealing this matter.

My life upside down since last year. I keep forcing myself to move on and not fall back again. As times goes by, I fall into the same mistake again. I can't handle the problem well. I not even able to convince myself to accept it.

Why my life have be so down? I keep looking the answer. No one able answer me neither myself.

It's really tired to think of all this problem. The more I think, the more I suffer. Should I go for it or just give up this opportunity?

God, if you do really exist, please lead me and show me the right way. Just show me and the rest I'll do it myself. I need a guideline. I had enough with all this. Really enough. I can't take it anymore. I need a break.